We always knew from the time we started dating that if we wanted children once we were married we would have to adopt. I am unable to have children. While this does tear at my heart; knowing that my children will never have my eyes or Ty's curly hair, or that I will never experience the miracle of a precious baby growing and developing in my womb, I have never doubted the fact that I will be a mother.
So, onward we go towards adoption! I always acknowledged it would be expensive and might not happen on my time table, but it wasn't until I started researching adoption in earnest after being married for a year that I realized how daunting a process adoption seems. Even going through our church's family services is much more expensive than I had anticipated. So now Tyler and I are in frantic savings mode. We are exploring different high yield savings accounts (good thing my brother is a financial guru) and are sacrificing our nice apartment. Come June we will be moving into my parent's home to be able to set aside even more money. While both Tyler and I hate to lose our independence in this way, we know this will be the best thing for us and Mom and Dad Hunsaker will make our stay with them enjoyable.
In the meantime, along with trying to cut back on spending (so hard for me!) we are also both attending school full time. Luckily Ty has received financial aid and his school costs have been completely covered. I have applied for aid, but we have yet to hear back if I have qualified. Stressful! I just keep telling myself that we will get through this period of our marriage. Both sets of our parents have told us how they really struggled when they were first married, and it amazes me how they hung in there and made it through these periods. ...But still, hearing their stories doesn't make our situation any easier. I really don't mean to be all "woe is me", but this is my blog, so I guess I'm entitled to a little self pity, right? :)
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