Everything has been going pretty well for Tyler and I for quite some time. We have been meeting our goals that we had made for ourselves, preparing for the future. Then yesterday we got some news that really threw us for a loop and slightly derailed our plans. I'm not sure how long it will take for us to reach the point we want to be at by the time we adopt, and it really kind of scares me.
I might not seem like it, but when it comes to the more important things in life, I like to have things planned to the tiniest detail. So, when we got this piece of news, I started freaking out. All my details and plans were thrown out the window, or at least temporarily dangled out the window. :) But in that moment, that's all I could see. Later that night I was reading in Doctrine and Covenants and the Lord was talking to Joseph Smith about how we should put our trust in God and not in man. That really struck me. I realized that I was relying to much on just myself, on Tyler, on people, and not putting all my trust in the Lord.
I hate not knowing what's going to come next. Not being able to be exactly prepared for what lies ahead. But, as Bro. Wirthlin has said, we must have the faith to step into darkness, knowing that only a step or two may be lighted ahead of us.
I guess this is kind of a more serious topic than I usually blog about. I just felt like putting it out there for anyone else who may be struggling with similar feelings.
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